Weird Day

It’s been a while since I’ve written in this blog and I’m quite behind but felt I had to write about today.

I’m finally going for the Corneal Graft surgery tomorrow and I don’t mind admitting I’m scared stiff! I was fairly OK until last night in bed when it all suddenly started washing over me, real waves of panic! I’ve felt them on and off all day today to the point where I was finding work very difficult. I don’t know what scares me, the anaesthetic partly, although I wouldn’t consider having a local! I’m also afraid of the on-going discomfort afterwards. I seriously thought about not going, just ringing up and saying I’d changed my mind, but then I looked down at my dinner plate and could barely see what was on it because of the distortion and realise I’d never stop wondering if I cancelled.

The other strange feeling I have today is that, depending on how long I have off work after surgery, I may not go back to the Daybrook office, so when I go back to work I’ll have a long unfamiliar journey and a totally new work environment.

It’s all happening at once, and all with still no sign of a dog.


About Mel Griffiths

I live and work in Nottingham, England and am blind. This blog is often centred around things that happen to me because of being blind. This is my space to write and sometimes people will disagree with what I write, but its the one place I have in which to be frank and honest. I also like to reflect on the funnier side of life from time to time.
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One Response to Weird Day

  1. Kim says:

    I really feel for you Mel, when I had my first eye op I was terrified! Didn’t like even me poking around anywhere near my eyes. And just the thought of somebody putting instruments actually in my eye, well, makes me shudder even now. But the good thing is it improved my vision! The upshot is your not alone in your fear and I’m sure all you friends, me included, wish you well and hope the op is a success for you. I’ll be thinking of you during your op. You are a very brave lady!
    Take care, and see you on the Darkside (read County Hall 🙂 ) X

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