It’s been a while since I’ve written in this blog and I’m quite behind but felt I had to write about today.
I’m finally going for the Corneal Graft surgery tomorrow and I don’t mind admitting I’m scared stiff! I was fairly OK until last night in bed when it all suddenly started washing over me, real waves of panic! I’ve felt them on and off all day today to the point where I was finding work very difficult. I don’t know what scares me, the anaesthetic partly, although I wouldn’t consider having a local! I’m also afraid of the on-going discomfort afterwards. I seriously thought about not going, just ringing up and saying I’d changed my mind, but then I looked down at my dinner plate and could barely see what was on it because of the distortion and realise I’d never stop wondering if I cancelled.
The other strange feeling I have today is that, depending on how long I have off work after surgery, I may not go back to the Daybrook office, so when I go back to work I’ll have a long unfamiliar journey and a totally new work environment.
It’s all happening at once, and all with still no sign of a dog.