Struggling with Depression

I didn’t write about this at the time, but for several weeks now I have been feeling very down and tearful. My sleep has been appalling again too. The worst of it all is that I don’t see a future for me. I don’t seem to be able to look forward to anything. If I could guarantee a way of committing suicide, I’d do it, but the fear of getting it wrong and waking up in QMC again has always stopped me.

Anyway, I had an appointment at the hospital on 11th January and after a bit of discussion, it was decided that I should start taking some medication again. I made it clear that I didn’t want the Venlafaxine again after the terrible numb state it left me in.

Now I’m taking Zispin. I’ve been on it for two weeks and the thing I have noticed is that I’m sleeping a whole lot better. I still don’t see a future, but its early days. However, I don’t seem to be crying as much as I was around Christmas time.


About Mel Griffiths

I live and work in Nottingham, England and am blind. This blog is often centred around things that happen to me because of being blind. This is my space to write and sometimes people will disagree with what I write, but its the one place I have in which to be frank and honest. I also like to reflect on the funnier side of life from time to time.
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