Yesterday was my 41st birthday and for the most part it was a really crap day. It was certainly a test on my resolve to be proficient and independent as a single person.
I was on a course yesterday so not at work with my friends, and when I woke up, I felt so lonely. I had cheery calls from my family wishing me a happy birthday and had to pretend that yes, I was having a great day! I had a handful of cards that I couldn’t read which for some reason really upset me. I guess its the first time for years that I’ve been alone on my birthday and all I could think about was this is how it will be for me from now on. By the time the evening came and I was ready to go out with my friends, I really didn’t think I could go. If I hadn’t have had nine people waiting for me, I probably would have cried off as I honestly didn’t know how I was going to put a brave face on it. Anyway, I managed it somehow and am really glad I did of course. We had a great evening with lots of laughs.
I feel so old and on the shelf today. Maybe next year I’ll buy myself a present from my dog in the style of all mad dog people!